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I’m back for the New Year

Happy New Year and I’m back. In some ways I can’t believe it was August that I wrote anything here, and in others it’s not surprising.   The latter months of 2015 were not good. I fell into a Major Depressive … Continue reading

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Just “Be”

I was in my session with my psychologist earlier this week, and we were talking about the expectations I put on myself around work and school, and where I should be with my life at my age.     I tend to … Continue reading

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When saying No is the way to move forward.

Last weekend, I was supposed to start a 3 day intensive residential treatment program.    I decided at the last minute not to go. There were several issues, but bottom line it came down to I was sick of treatment.    I’d … Continue reading

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Self-Injury

“I feel that I am broken or damaged. That some part of me either never learned a particular skill set or was incapable of learning that skill set. I suspect it centers on my ability to deal with intense emotion. … Continue reading

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Blades and Booze

As I look back over my 30’s, I realized my life revolved around 2 things outside of work, self-injury and drinking. I’d self-injured as a kid and teen, and then stopped, but restarted in my mid 30’s after some pretty … Continue reading

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I’m good. No realy i’m fine. No nothing’s wrong. Thanks for asking but i’m fine REALLY

I will admit that from the outside, my life might look less than ideal – ie, I’m only working contracts and I’m perpetually broke   But this is not the end of the world as we now it. I have a … Continue reading

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Stigma

I have a friend who is both alcoholic and mentally ill.   She’s been sober long term, but she’s far from stable mentally.   I don’t know why – but her Dr’s don’t seem to suggest the same type of therapy programs … Continue reading

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Moved – Some Random Thoughts

Our lease date got moved forward by 2 weeks, thanks to some confusion with the leasing company, so we moved into our new apartment on Nov. 16.   So we’ve been here a week. The move has been tough.   Moving is … Continue reading

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Hope – Both Scary and Freeing

I’ve been in some type of therapy for depression, anxiety, and post traumatic stress pretty much consistently since 1998, and on meds continuously since 1999.    All of my Dr’s have told me that I’ll need meds for the rest of … Continue reading

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Super intensive Therapy & finally feeling happy.

I’m almost afraid to say it, because I don’t want to jinx myself – but I’m actually feeling happy.    I don’t know, maybe I’m finally getting the “Pink Cloud” that others get in early sobriety – just took me a … Continue reading

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