Category Archives: Looking Back

Women for Sobriey Statement 2

Negative thoughts destroy only myself. My first conscious sober act must be to remove negativity from my life. This is a tough one for me, but at least it’s one I can say I’ve been working on for some time.     … Continue reading

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Feeling Sad – miss my Mom

I don’t write about my Mom a lot.  It’s too emotionally hard.   But lately I’ve been thinking about her and crying, a lot.     When I think about her I get a warm nice feeling, as I remember doing stuff with … Continue reading

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Reflections on my arm

I’m looking at the inner part of my forearm.   And I see faint white scars. They are carved there, by blood and tears.   A testimony to the time when I only knew how to express emotional pain by cutting. I … Continue reading

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Don’t want to go back there

Yesterday in group therapy, my addictions Dr. asked us all what had made us decide to give up whatever our drug of choice was, and get into recovery. Talk about bad memories.   I said that the very first time I … Continue reading

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When I Look at my Scars

This is something I originally wrote on BUS, but it got a good response there, so I thought I’d share it with a broader audience. I was feeling kind of reflective today. I’m currently doing an intensive therapy program for … Continue reading

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Then and Now: Am I Better Revisited

I posted some time ago, that my brother had asked me if I was “better” and that I had had a hard time answering.   This subject came up recently in therapy, and my therapist said absolutely that I am better … Continue reading

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Merry Christmas – Then and Now

Merry Christmas readers, I hope you all have a lovely day. Christmas is a weird holiday for me.   I loved it as a kid of course, but as an adult, is was mostly a non-event.   For several years in my … Continue reading

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Reflections

I keep an on-line journal at another site.  I’ve been writing in it on and off since 2003.   Recently it occurred to me that I’d be devastated if anything happenned at the site and I lost the content, so I … Continue reading

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