Category Archives: Mental Health

The downside of meds

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m a full proponent of the medical model and believe in using meds to treat both addiction and mental illness.     To keep my particular brand of crazy functioning as a normal person in society I … Continue reading

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Women for Sobriety statement 2

Negative thoughts destroy only myself. My first conscious sober act must be to remove negativity from my life. This is something I really struggled with for a long time.   At heart I lean towards pessimism, and I can usually give … Continue reading

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Women for Sobriey Statement 2

Negative thoughts destroy only myself. My first conscious sober act must be to remove negativity from my life. This is a tough one for me, but at least it’s one I can say I’ve been working on for some time.     … Continue reading

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Letting go of shame

I had something of a breakthrough, about 6 weeks ago, when I was being interviewed for a volunteer position on their phone lines. I’d applied 2 years ag0, and had gone through all the steps and was in the final … Continue reading

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Reflections on my arm

I’m looking at the inner part of my forearm.   And I see faint white scars. They are carved there, by blood and tears.   A testimony to the time when I only knew how to express emotional pain by cutting. I … Continue reading

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Do I love myself?

Each week as part of my psychotherapy, I write about my feelings and reactions to one of Women for Sobriety’s 13 statements.    This week’s statement was #10 about giving and receiving love. This is something I struggle with. I … Continue reading

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When I Look at my Scars

This is something I originally wrote on BUS, but it got a good response there, so I thought I’d share it with a broader audience. I was feeling kind of reflective today. I’m currently doing an intensive therapy program for … Continue reading

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Feeling Useful AKA Counting Cash at a Clubhouse for the mentally ill.

Today I took another step down the rabbit hole that is my life.   I had my first shift at Progress Place.     For those of you not familiar with Progress Place, it’s a pretty cool concept.  It’s a club house, run … Continue reading

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Reflection on the psych hospital

I’ve now been out of the psych hospital for a week and a half.   I must admit I have mixed feelings of being out.   I miss the security, the structure, and having mental health professionals around 24/7.   At the same … Continue reading

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Anger – no make that rage

My last two Seeking Safety groups have been devoted to the subject of anger, healthy and unhealthy ways of dealing with it, and turning anger inwards or outwards.    These were not easy sessions for me, and I found myself badly … Continue reading

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