It’s sometimes frustrating being a crazy addict. People keep telling you what you can’t do, lest it interfere with your recovery. I recently had a very frustrating experience with a distress line. As background, I volunteered for 3 years on my psych hospital’s telephone support line, enjoyed it and was good at it. Then they shut the line down. So since at the moment, I’m unemployed except for some freelance stuff and not in school, I have time on my hands, so I thought I’d apply to my city’s distress centre.
I filled in the on-line application, had a telephone interview, and was invited for an in-person interview. The woman interviewing me, said I had great skills and experience, would be a great fit, and add a lot of value to the line BUT they couldn’t accept me as a volunteer, as I’d had a psych hospitalization in the preceding 18 months to 2 years. So I’ve been invited to reapply in 18 months. Ok – I can kind of see the point of the policy, put it on your website and I wouldn’t have even bothered applying. Except that the policy is technically discriminatory and illegal in ON, so I guess they don’t want to advertise it.
I was expressing my frustration about this to my addictions Dr., and she said lots of places had similar policies. WTF – psych patients are encouraged to volunteer as a means of reintegrating with society.
So in the vein of convincing myself that I am ok, and attempting to cheer myself up, I decided to make a list of all the stuff I can do, despite being a crazy addict. Some of it’s kind of mundane, some of it’s kind of cool. So here goes:
- write. Some people say I write well, but I’ll let you judge that.
-Play the harp. Definitely a minority skill set.
-Volunteer at Progress Place – they at least want me.
-knit. I rock at knitting.
-Exercise. I just don’t like it.
-Go to AA and Double Recovery Meetings and help other alcoholics.
-Stay sober. Yes that actually is an accomplishment.
-Laugh at myself. US Politics would be a lot more civilized if more people possessed this ability.
-Public Speak. I’m good at it and enjoy it.
-Garden. Can’t where I’m living at the moment, but I enjoy it when I can.
-Meditate. I actually enjoy this.
So all in all there’s lots of stuff to keep me busy until I go back to school in Jan. and or get a job.
So think about it. Even when life totally sucks there are probably some positive things you can do. What are they?