Happy New Year and I’m back.
In some ways I can’t believe it was August that I wrote anything here, and in others it’s not surprising. The latter months of 2015 were not good.
I fell into a Major Depressive Episode that drugs didn’t touch, I relapsed a couple of times, I repeated rehab, I found out my meds that keep me sane are likely damaging my heart, and on an up note, found a job, only to have the offer rescinded a week later when funding for the position was pulled by head office. Looking back on the last half of 2015 and it’s a fog – a blur, of treatment, sleep and mindlessly watching DVD’s. Not the life I wanted, but I couldn’t pull myself out of it.
There were a couple of good things, I started working with a dietitian and have started losing weight – I’m almost at my first goal, which was to get under 200 lbs. So far I’ve lost a total of 18 lbs, with only minor tweaks to my diet.
But happily 2016 has started out on a more positive note. Something in my brain shifted and I came out of the depression, mostly. I’m still struggling slightly with motivation, although I suspect that’s being out of practice as much as anything. Some days I even feel happy. My addictions Dr. has agreed to try me on an anti-craving med. I’ve signed up for a year long, on-line course on mindfulness. I’m applying to get into a healthcare covered, yoga and mindfulness program, and I’ve started walking every day.
I’ve checked with the Fraud Examiner’s board, and they’ve confirmed I have until the end of 2016 to finish my course and write my exams, which is better than I expected. I’m feeling good about job hunting, and feel confident that I’ll find a job in 2016. I’ve restarted volunteering at the Distress Centre (I had to take a leave of absence in Dec.) and I have a plan, for the unlikely event that I don’t find work.
So in short I’m back. And, will hopefully begin writing about the WFS statements shortly.
Have a great 2016 everyone.