I can’t believe it was Feb. when I last posted.
I don’t know where my mind has been.
I’ve been struggling frankly – wanting to drink, suicidal ideation, thoughts of self harm which hasn’t been an issue in over 5 years. But I guess I’m stubborn, because I just keep chugging on.
The job search has been depressing and largely an exercise in frustration. I’m now applying to Tim Horton’s but I can’t even get an interview with them. Did get an interview for one job, and came in second which isn’t much consolation.
But I recognize that I have a choice – I can give up or I can keep trying. I’m going with the latter, as I’m not yet completely out of options. And I refuse to let the universe win.
I’m profoundly grateful for the support I get from my friends, both IRL and on-line. Without them, I would have given up ages ago.
I just need to rediscover my reason to live.
I’m going to try to get back to writing more frequently, and will return to the WFS series.